What an end to last week – I asked for a meeting with my supervisor on Thursday. Cut a long story short – I gave in my verbal notice as courtesy, saying I would be handing it in formally this week.
Within the hour I had received a pay rise, an offer of a new position and agreement to 2 months off to travel as long as I am back before Christmas and commit to the position to February next yr ! My store manager said that I was not being offered it because I handed in my notice, that I had earnt it and he was waiting for the owner to sign off on it, which he did that morning - I just got in first -oops !!
I told h and his reaction was “wowsers! I am not surprised though” I asked his opinion, he replied “ I have caused you enough confusion lately, your on your own with this one”.
So I have spent the past few days going around in circles and decided to take the position but turn down the travel time as I want to go away June/July next year and if I am still with the company I can’t be cheeky and have it again! So I have gone from crappy cleaner to running Health and Beauty dept - with a rumour of me being offered a cadetship to management if I can turn the dept around.
H rang today to talk about s and he asked if I have decided on the job – I said yes, but would really like his thoughts before I tell him –
We talked for a long time on how things stand now, he understands now that he has a long way to go to sort his head out. He needs to settle in himself and build his life independently from me so he does not bring any toxic residue into any other future relationship, to be whole again.
He said that I am still his target and that when he left I was not even on the range so things have definitely changed. I told him my decision – I said it was made because I need to do this for myself, a new challenge for me, more for my c.v, future security financially. I am doing it for him, to allow him space from me to mend and “find” himself. I am doing it for us, to give us the best chance possible, because if there is to be an us, I want it to be for life, no looking over my shoulder, a strong, healthy relationship
H said he liked what I said and that I included the word “us” in it.
