Zeus a better life for sure! Just have to keep digging for the strength! I understand this is who is he NOW but this is not who he was when I met him. Heck this is not who he was when we got back together this last time. I know I can not change him I can change me and see if he comes along with the changes. He has always been like this towards the end of every R just not in the beginning. You are completely right. I have to change first and see what happens if he comes he comes if not he doesn't. I need to CHOOSE a better path not more of the same. It is very hard. Especially since I have done the same for so long. But it is becoming to much. I am realizing the more and more I post on here how horrible BOTH of us are. It is not just one of us. I can only control one of us and that is me. I have to choose to move forward and up! I'm happy to hear the broken record sometimes having things knocked into my head makes me realize the truth! I am frightened of all change and loss of what I have considered stability. I know now its not stability but it is what my past has been. I will take the challenge and start reading your thread! How long did it take you to change your thoughts? Am I going to slow? I am really trying to learn!
