Newbie needing support and advice

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so there is something I am not "getting" and need help/advice on - I read over and over again the question you vets ask about what it is your spouse complained about, etc. What are you doing to change it, better yourself, etc? The thing is when I say we never fought I mean it, we never fought. If I was the one upset or nagging he would literally sit there and stare at me or just say "I'm sorry". It was so frustrating that I became a door mat. That I do know and I am learning to stop doing that. I guess I just don't have a clear understanding of what I was doing that was wrong, per se, because I have nothing to go on from his words. Even the reason for him wanting a divorce was "we grew apart". He is an avoider, he will avoid a dispute or argument until the pot boils over.

The things I want to work on for me:

Being a more patient mother not raise my voice

Standing up for myself in an assertive way instead of spiteful or rude way

Stop checking my phone to see if he called or texted me