I stopped calling and texting about a week ago. I've been working on GAL. Running helps. She usually checks up on me once a day with a phone call. Yesterday she wanted to come by the house and hang out. I was in a really solid place so I asked her if she wanted to bring the rest of her stuff over to her new place. She told me I was freaking her out and that she wanted to keep the rest of her stuff in our house. Before she left we cuddled in our bed. When she left she kissed me. It's back on now. I haven't text her or called her at all today and I haven't heard from her either. I know that she works a majority of the day. I've been going back and forth on if I really want this anymore. When she's around I feel close to her and we've been having fun. When she isn't I have thoughts filled with resentment and anger. I'm fairly confident I can pick up other girls so it's not like I'm afraid to be single. All of the cons outweigh the pros for reconciling. But the one pro is that it's her. And that throws all the cons away. Love is illogical. I should add that I'm not "in love" with her either. I love her in a mature, committed, type way. But I haven't felt the spark for a long time. My intention really it to just try to see if we can salvage what we have and build a new relationship.
