I WANT to get a job, but I don't think people on here truly grasp how hard that is when you live in the middle of nowhere, and there ARE no jobs.
Other than that a few positives are that I AM getting myself back into peak physical condition. I have been working out HARD ever since this happened. I am back to nearly my best. My body is transforming rapidly into 150 pounds of steel. Like it was when I was riding bulls. My 6pack is back. I feel great about myself for that.
I have quit smoking cigs cold turkey, and I feel better than I have since I was 17 years old. No more hacking, and coughing.
I have been cleaning the house with more purpose than ever before. It looks better than it has in years around here.
Also keep in mind that I have S8, and D3 pulling at my pants leg AT ALL TIMES. There is not a moments peace. They are both NEEDING me to look at them constantly. Daddy watch this. Daddy look at me. Daddy wanna see something? Daddy Daddy Daddy Daddy. It makes it hard to get anything actually done. When they take a nap I log in on here and vent. It helps tremendously.
Another huge step I took was getting back in touch with my father. It was not beneficial though. He is the hardest man ever, and dosent understand that I cant just smack her around, and MAKE her get right. Im not like him, and Im not gonna do him the way he did my Momma.
