LBS trying to get it right

[ATPeace]

I have a quick question

So many of you know my situation living with my W since B now in separate rooms she gives no intamacy what so ever she has told me several times that she just does not feel that way about me any longer

I know there is resentment from her for the way I treated her by not being there for her me putting my needs first not doing enough with the kids upsetting the kids and not doing enough arround the house

Once I got really upset and threw something across the room and it hit the staircase and chipped it this was about 3 years ago and she told me she has been looking at this chip as a reminder of the bad times we had

So
I know she has been unhappy for a number of years
I know the sex / making love did not stop until she dropped the B
We used to cuddle and kiss right up to the day of the B

But she is adement it is over

I have been trying to put distance between us but this is extremely difficult when we are n the house together

In the house we still do each other's washing and we cook for each other and the kids and we do still get along very well however I am missing the closeness we had and we did have closeness and I am missing the lack intamacy and closeness and affection

I have taken on a lot more of the house chores this is something that she complained about a lot of the time so I do the ironing unload the dishwasher and vacuum downstairs clean bathroom she,also does much of the same in the way of the chores

It feels like she now has everything she wanted of our R without the commitment of M or a R less the intamacy that she never really felt was that important anyway.

She said 6 weeks ago that it would be nice to do some days out as a family over the summer holidays with the children so today we went to the zoo 6 hrs in each other's company getting along just fine talking laughing together

So it almost does not feel like a separation .....it feels like everything is as it was just without the intamacy and she gets to go out with her friends more I get to do more housework and more with the kids which is what she asked for throughout the M and she does not have to answer to me or my needs.

I don't just want for us to be just friends for ever

So please can someone help me to understand where I am right now on this journey the dynamics of my relationship with W seems different to many of the situations I read on here

Do things have to get worse before they get better....worse being split up completely separate houses will things ever get better.......and what actually is better ?

For as far as I know she may be prepared to have this kind of relationship for the next 15 years

What are your thoughts

I sometimes feel like asking my W ....how would you feel if you never saw me ever again would you be upset ? Is this a strange things to want to ask ??

thanks in advance