When I said professionals, I didn't mean like with degrees, so I chose the wrong word completely and I do apologize.
V--Thank you for taking the time to explain things so I understand them. Sometimes it takes me a bit.
Toots--I actually screen shot all of V's posts so that I can read and reread them when I need the strength.
Work on detatching. Alot more. Put Mouth! (OW) out of my head. I did it once I can do it again. I saw one person on here said he gives himself a certain amount of time a day (10 mins I think) to think about his sitch. I think I will do that. It is time for me. I do stand for my marriage and I so fearful I will drive him away but that's the chance I am willing to take for me.
I have stopped running interference between him and the children. That is his problem o deal with and fix, not mine. If he cant handle what the children say to him then too bad.
For this week and next I have a 3 day weekend each week. That will give me time to get my head clear, my meds going, and my GAL working. I know I need Me time, but I am spending as much time as I can with my kids. I really think I like the idea of the flower gardens. Dd18 is not an outdoorsy person so she and I spend time cooking.
Me 44 H 46 3 DD 22, 18, 15 1 DS 2.5 M 10/1992 BD1 2/2014 BD 2 7/19/2014 Moved in with OW 7/20/2014
