Zeus you are right it is a vicious cycle and I am growing very tired of it very quickly. I am starting to wonder how much longer I can take it without just losing my mind. I have been holding on to him changing. He obviously is not willing to change so I have to change. Not for him or the relationship but for me. I need to stand up for myself in a healthy way not screaming anger. I am done being his babysitter and door mat. I honestly can not take the anger, disrespect, saddness and stress anymore. I mean it! I only talked to FIL to get him to go wake up H! I am ready to take responsibility for me and the kids only. I am ready to care for myself. Go do things I want to do and spending time doing what I want to do. It is so hard accepting reality when I know this is not who he is! He can not be living in reality! So I need to give him space to figure out what he is doing and I need to decide what is best for me and D8! thanks zeus!
