Elly - I discovered today that my divorce is going to completely clean me out financially. Ill be able to rebuild, but at least at the start I will have truly no money.
And then, I watched my kids swimming, and the sight of their happy faces reminded me of how worth it this all is. The time I get to spend with them is worth more than any amount of money.
Hopefully, you can find that level of contentment with your relationship with your son as well. The pain and suffering that we go through is all worth it with one smile, you know?