Someone please tell me when the aliens are going to drop my H off. I don't understand. The man I love with all my heart, who can't lie, and hates liars is one. He looks me in the face and lies. He looks his father in the eyes and lies. Keeping tthat in my mind has helped me to work on detaching and letting go. I am not giving up on him or us. But if I don't back away I will lose my mind. But at the same time it feels like I am giving up and I don't want that.
I find it kinda of humorous that I feel like the other woman minus the ML. He talks to me and hides his phone. Deletes messages. Passwords his phone. Changes all passwords regularly. Why? I know now that he is cake eating and I have to pull away. I am already in the back of the bus so I should go ahead and get off the bus. But then I think about what V said. The closer and more cooperative H and I are the more the real her will emerge. This will burn it self out. That I do believe.
Need to create space. Need little1 space. Working on that. Fake it until I make it.
I read Sandi 37 and the things I should not (and don't) do, I see him doing instead. It's like he is the one pursing but I don't know. I would just like some movement.
Last edited by little1; 08/01/1511:20 PM.
Me 44 H 46 3 DD 22, 18, 15 1 DS 2.5 M 10/1992 BD1 2/2014 BD 2 7/19/2014 Moved in with OW 7/20/2014
