So my S8 decided to spend the night with WW for a change, but as usual had to call and speak to dad before bed time. The poor kid always struggles so much making the decision, like he's betraying me if he stays with mom. It breaks my heart, but I talked with him for about 5 minutes and he seemed in a good mood. Then he handed the phone back to WW and we spoke for about 5 minutes.

I said he seemed in good spirits, and she seemed surprised. She thought he seemed very conflicted, as usual when he stays. We spoke briefly about plans for the next day, and what time I wanted her to drop him off. We're heading to my mother's tomorrow to take their new boat out on a local lake so told her I needed him here by 2pm, which she was fine with. Then she asked about whether I had a chance to look into the Sam's Club membership upgrade for prescription discounts. Told her I had and it actually does seem like a good deal as a couple of S15's medications can be had for big discounts w/o insurance so I informed her that I would be upgrading just for the purpose.

She then started talking about the cost of her own prescription and how she wasn't sure how she would afford it. I could tell she was going for guilt again and waiting for me to offer to help. Mentioned how she wasn't sure how she was going to afford it and didn't know if OM would give her the money for it. I said that maybe he can do it just for this month, and suggested she consider looking into public assistance. Told her that I'm also looking into for me and the kids, as I have no idea how long before I'll have insurance through employment again.

Then, she asked about my recent job interview, which S18 must have mentioned, since I had not said a word to her about it. So I gave some high level details but overall tried to not sound optimistic, even though I'm feeling that way. I'm pretty sure that she's hoping for me to hurry up and land a new job so I'll start funneling money her way again. So she wished me good luck, and then, right as I was looking for a way to end the conversation (always be the first to leave), she says "OK", with that distinct tone of voice letting you know the conversation is over. Darn it! I immediately jumped in and said I had to get going, asked her to keep me informed about dropping off S8 tomorrow, and wished her a good night. But wishing I would have ended the call just a few seconds before she got out that last "OK". Gotta work on that technique.

So overall I feel it went fine, but sort of bothered about how little she really seems to care. I've been sitting around obsessing about her all day, and I don't think I cross into her thoughts at all, other than when she worries about money. Guess that's typical, but it hurts. I'm proud of myself for staying calm and not taking the bait when she was fishing for help on her script, so guess overall I did fine. Hoping for a good night sleep and a fun day tomorrow with the family.


Me 47 W 42
T 24 yrs M 18 yrs
W living with OM
BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1)
BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out)
WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015.
Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.