If you haven't already done so, you may want to begin reading some of the other threads around the DB community. When you feel comfortable, you may want to think about posting to others as well. When you do this, it opens up a communication line that creates new friendships, not only on their threads, but they will also come to visit yours.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.