Don't beat yourself up Mattdad, no one on here was doing all they could or should have in our M's.
You can start changing the story of your life today though. Make a list of the issues you can start to tackle and start using that fighting spirit to move yourself forward in a positive direction.
You rode bulls right? Use the same strength and determination you needed for that to take a step in the right direction and get this ball rolling.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17