Ts just an all around bad day. I have this awful feeling of dread come over me and I just cant shake it. I want the pain, hurt, and thoughts to stop. I don't understand and I wish I did.
How could Dec 2013 we were happy and he was telling me he loved me to Jan 2014 she's in the picture? How can he walk away from his children and seeming not care? I am so scared that there will be a knock on the door and I will be being served with papers. How could a man who despises liars, 1. be involved with a liar. 2. be such a liar. How can I be that lighthouse beacon to show him the way when for the last month it feels like he is only talking to me out of pity and I really don't want to talk to him when I feel that way. Why does it feel this is never going to end and the OW won? Why does everyone say I am the lucky one. I still have contact with my H and papers are not filed.
Yes I want my husband home. Yes I want my family together Yes I believe we can move forward Why can't just once I get what I want instead of everyone else getting what they want first?
Sorry for the pity party
Me 44 H 46 3 DD 22, 18, 15 1 DS 2.5 M 10/1992 BD1 2/2014 BD 2 7/19/2014 Moved in with OW 7/20/2014
