God almighty this is hard. Ive been through a lot of hard things, but this is by far the hardest. THese last two weeks have dang near killed me.
When she had secret boyfriends in the past I always managed to find out exactly who they were, and confront them. they always got scared, and left her alone. This time is different though. I am in the dark about who, or even how many. I cant scare them away. I know Im not suppose to want to, but heck it worked before. She was even extremely turned on about how crazy, and scary I got to run them off.
That was when we were in our early 20s though. She blamed it on the fact that she just had a baby, and wasn't chemically balanced. She was remorseful back then. She has gotten so much sneakier. I hate this. Im having a rough spell right now. Im glad this forum exist. Otherwise I would go completely unheard. I would have no voice at all.
