Yes I have read and am reading everything I can. I will go over and reread everything. These things so simply logical to do, but realistically to me it's not. My mind and my heart tend to somehow conflict with what I should be doing. Please keep in mind that I am asking questions here on the bb, all the while following the steps. I do have to be more concise in following the steps to a "T".
For some reason the days seems to come so fast in the morning and then night draws long for me.
I'm the type of man that tends to need to make sense of things logically...analytical by nature.
Fear of her not coming home with kids tends to creep in and the finality of it all scares me which in turn spurs me to want to move on and find another woman. I know that is wrong and not the things to do, but it does pop in my head to do so to ease what I'm going through and cushion the blows I'm giving to myself and to cope. I do know it's the wrong thing to do.
