Looking for advice and comfort

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Caliguy
Of course I am not calling you old!!! I did sign up for a tiling class at home depot next weekend. I am trying to find things I am interested in...even before I met her I liked just working out and hanging out at home. I have never had a huge social circle just one or 2 friends. I would occasionally go to the clubs, but I am not a huge drinker and I am a horrible dancer.

I think it might be easier if we weren't living in the same house. In the back of my head I keep waiting for her to tell me that she wants to sell the house and go our separate ways. The month of july is over and I dont know if you remember I told her to take the month of july to see a therapist. I started DBing the beginning of july and had some good results (I left for 4th of july weekend, told her I was going with some friends to san diego) and stopped doing the things that pushed her away (talking about R/M, physical contact, crying). When I did these things she started to hug me, came into guestroom and wanted to cuddle, concerned about me. Then I went and did the spartan race by myself.

I totally get what your saying about focusing on me, I am trying. I'm sorry I am all over the place. I have so much to say