New day & feeling better. I knew what was contributing to my overwhelming feelings of sadness but that didn't make it any easier. I was trying not to cry last night but then couldn't help it. I went and hid in the bathroom for a bit. Then came out to cook dinner. Couldn't totally stop the crying & H noticed. He asked what was wrong & I told him that I just was having a tough day. He asked if there was anything he could do & I said that I didn't think so (even though my mind is saying: yeah... you can totally do something & that would be to be 100% committed to working on the relationship & never talk to OW or any other female for that matter in a intimate way again... but I didn't say that). He gave me a side hug as I was preparing food. So at least he is offering some care. If I would have been crying a few weeks ago he would have just ignored me, I'm sure.
H texted a few minutes ago and asked if I wanted to have a weekend away in the fall in Denver due to some airline deal he had... I am not sure if he is meaning a weekend away for the two of us or with the kids. I said yeah I would be interested if we could work it in the budget. Haven't heard anything back from that.
More vacation prep today. Trying to not get too stressed about all that is on my plate in addition to my reservations about this long vacation together. Hoping he limits his phone use and we can enjoy the time away. Regardless, I'll have to focus on having the best time I can, at least with the kids.
T: 14 M: 12 D: 9 S: 6 BD: 2/18/15 (H affair) Working on marriage: 3/12/15-6/11/15 Broken Trust (my error): 6/11/15 H ring off: 7/6/15; Comm w/ OW confirmed 7/13/15 H wants to work on fixing things: 7/21/15
