DBB, I see a lot of things that can make my M better too but I doubt I'll ever get that chance. I went out last night because I needed to have some fun, I'm looking for friends to talk to and go out with. It was the hardest thing I've evere done, I believe thats why I cried all the way home and then I got angry because I find this all so unfair. I will tell you it has been nice not having to see him today and if he hadn't stopped here at 6:30 in the am before he left for Virginia I wouldn't have had to see him yesterday....it's a big relief not to wonder, read expressions and listen to crap for the next couple of days...it was worth giving him my car, WHAT A NEEDED BREAK. I know the pain DBB, I know when he gets back I'll be right back to that pain every time I see him. I ask myself if it ever goes away..I can see it gets a little better with time but that doesn't help. I'm always there to listen if needed DBB, take care of yourself and hang in there...we will come out of this (eventually). stacie
