I a really struggling today. I have a lot of added stress with getting ready for the trip & 2 dogs sick (one we have to figure out when to put to sleep) to deal with... And then I am hornonal... So today I have just been so sad about having such a messed up marriage. It is really getting me down today. Normally I can tough that part out... Or I am so deep in panic that there is no room for sadness. But today I am sad and feel like it would be easier to just start over with someone who wanted me and would be there for me. I am feeling really alone & sad about not having my h there to lean on or even talk to about all this. I am just having a tough time today and a bit of a pity party.
T: 14 M: 12 D: 9 S: 6 BD: 2/18/15 (H affair) Working on marriage: 3/12/15-6/11/15 Broken Trust (my error): 6/11/15 H ring off: 7/6/15; Comm w/ OW confirmed 7/13/15 H wants to work on fixing things: 7/21/15
