hold on! - 11

[u-turn]

Hi JellyB,
Thanks for stopping by my place - it's a bit of a mess right now - I hope you don't mind.

I think maybe at some point she will (admire???) me for standing up for myself and values - I can't say whether or not in what ways it will affect her - maybe some, maybe not at all.

Thank could happen or she could just see the ripping the family apart aspect of it.

Early after BD her complaint of me was that I wasn't my own person, didn't stand up for myself, didn't say no to anyone, didn't love myself, wasn't in control of my own happiness, held on to guilt over things that were out of my control, I was carrying the weight of the world........ I understand and agree with all of this. I think this was overwhelming to her.

Now I stand up for myself - not in anger, just to move forward. (likely too late for her to come with me).

Thanks for coming over