I'm sure you can relate, is that I don't really want to feel better. I feel this way because of what is happening and I can't pretend it's not happening. i can't see ANYTHING besides what is happening with my wife. NOTHING.
I can totally relate. It's weird I know. When I found out and still to this day I wake up thinking of only her, I go to sleep thinking of only her, I workout thinking of only her. Everything I do is for her. I didn't want and still dont want the pain to end either because in some screwed up way felt it kept me closer to her. I still think if I feel pain she's feeling pain and she's thinking of me. But two months in man I'm starting to think a little different. I'm getting glimpses of being healthier for ME. I'm noticing that being depressed isn't good for ME. I'm tired of her hurting ME. It doesn't mean that I don't love her any less. It doesn't mean that I'm giving up. In fact I think she would appreciate all of these things. Seriously though man at some point it has to get better for the both of us! Please take care of yourself.
