Yesterday was good... started off with W texting me about wanting to be able to afford to go on vacation. "Not looking for you to fix it, just talking". Then asked if I could take a call. We had a small finance talk about some bills we are behind on that are in her name. She said "if we have to sell the house, I'm screwed with my credit" or something like that. So a bit of a bummer to hear her say something like that, as we WOULD have to sell if we got divorced.
Anyway, I just validated and said, yes, there is a plan, just waiting on some payments, etc. At the end of the call she said "well this was actually really nice, different than usual".
Then later on she texted asking if I was home (office is detached but on my home property). I wasn't. She needed help moving some stuff in the storage area, whatever, and I told her no problem I would come by and help.
She made dinner for us and the kids. It was totally nice and normal. Kept it totally light, humor, PMA all the way. I even actually felt it!
After, kids went off and I was walking around getting ready to take off. She said "I know this isn't the right venue... but I just want to say, if we DO end up staying together, I'm going to need you to be more of DOer and less of a THINKER."
I laughed, and said "yes, I agree! Believe me, you don't need to tell me my life was in a rut."
Anyway, just journaling. Made me feel good to hear her say something like that... that the door isn't closed in her heart... which I know she has said, that she truly doesn't know what she wants... but to hear her say something like that, which included me in a potential future... anyway, you get the idea.
Anyone have any thoughts on the separation thing? Got a call with my coach today, so I'll ask as well.
Me 37,W37 D8,D5 T20 years, M13 years BD-5/14 MC starts (continues)-9/14 EA discovered-10/14 Piecing(?)-11/14-5/14 "I just feel 'done'"-5/15 Trial S (I moved)-6/15/15
