Today I feel calm. Not really sure why. Actually worries me. I went a whole day with no tears. Yay for me. Yesterday I TM'd H off and on all day. All by his contact. Funny we were even talking when scallywag was around. At one point he sent me a Grr message and when I asked what he relied "Her Nothing else". (Yes that was the message). Before I would ask a million questions, but instead all I said was ok and changed the subject. Very Very proud of myself for that.
He sent me a message late last night asking if it was ok to come over and see the kids. I didn't get it until this morning. normally I wouldn't answer in the morning because it pisses scallywag off. But today, I said enough is enough. So i sent him that it was ok. She gets mad at him for it too bad. I am done respecting everyone elses feeling when mine arent.
My question regarding figuring out what she has etc actually came from my DB/DR books. But V said I can't figure that out so I am not worried about it.
I don't know how this will come out but, all of the sudden yesterday a feeling came over me. Time to push up my shirt sleeves and get busy. While I don't have my books here, because I keep them at work to not be found, I have my opener from Cadet that I am using on my days off.
This is about ME and MY BABIES.
Me 44 H 46 3 DD 22, 18, 15 1 DS 2.5 M 10/1992 BD1 2/2014 BD 2 7/19/2014 Moved in with OW 7/20/2014
