Bwriter, Thanks..I wanted to look at that as a sign, at least a sign of confusion is better than nothing, granted I'm not putting all my hopes on it but it is something. I think it's pretty good that your W doesn't want to think about D right now. How long has she been in C? I think you have reason to have hope and I do understand when you say you don't want to base full hope on that (you need to protect youself to a certain degree). I had a pretty good day yesterday despite talking to H about R, I was upbeat and didn't get down. I think yesterday may have been the first day I haven't cried in five months, on the bad side due to problems at work I've been up for the last thirty-five hours so it's been off and on water works all day. How are your C's doing through all of this? My 11D has been very clingy, doesn't want to be away from me, I sometimes think she is trying to be my protecter. Once again thanks for listening and the input, it's greatly appreciated, write again. stacie
