Of course the answer is Honey. I just don't want to be sucker punched again.
My big fear here is: What if she is sending these same photos and texts to AP?
OK - that is just mindreading and I will stop that NOW. I control my thoughts, not the other way around right??!! Right.
It is hard to shut that little mean person down in my head. How I wish I could silence him forever and go back to being the trusting person I used to be.
Mostly those feelings have passed, but every now and then up they pop. When they do pop up, it is not as intense and they don't last long but they are still unpleasant.
I am trying to replace every negative feeling I have with a specific happy event in my life. For example, when I feel anger, I imagine when my S9 or D6 was born, one the happiest days of my life. I can also think about when I got married, another one of the happiest days of my life. I have read with practice you can replace bad thoughts with good ones but it's a discipline.
