Vge I am happy to read of shotgun & others who have been through similar sitch.
I liked reading this. Stay with it - I am not going to die I KNOW that the answer is out there - it's the 'where' part, but it IS out there.
Continue to use your support networks, Church etc. 'Kick it up a notch' ... You'll need them as he fights uglier & uglier & uglier! He's coming! Use your networks & cast a bigger net if you need to (re support). This is 'war' on two 'fronts.' 1- the disease and, 2 - the other disease, the two legged father of your kids.
On your sick days, remember that your body is fighting like hell against the cancer so it won't feel good. Experience what you need to emotionally & support your body for the fight its putting up. Support your mind by not giving into negative self talk - let it know its a rough patch & all will be well. Get your support all lined up & out (!) if needed (whatever helps you get though the rough patches since your h is acting up with level of inhumane cruelty).
You already know you've got tons of folks here behind you Praying for you to continue staying strong until 'victorious' ... p.
pbetra ---- M: 15 yrs (in 2014) BD: 6/03/2014 Infidelity ('known' from July 2014) Denied PA Feb 2015 2 leave Mar 2015 (left early Summer). Some contact. Back briefly 2017 (after family death) Separated 2017
