Bwriter, OK, I blew it today, but I kind of don't feel bad about it. My H stopped by tonight and once again our marriage wasn't that great it wasn't that bad...but he deserves to be happy, we married young, he's financially strapped (I felt like his past life and unhappiness was my fault)he was justifying his actions w/OW and making excuses for our time together. I attempted to be pleasant, listen let him vent but it finally got to a point were I couldn't be his sounding board anymore especially since I was looking like a person that has held him back from his true happiness. So I probably did the worst thing I could have done...but enough was enough, so I asked him nicely not to call anymore, or stop by, I needed my space and although the OW may not have the strenght to walk away, I do. I know it was probably wrong but I need an emotional break and I think he needs the wake up call that he can't tell me he loves me one day and belittle me the next, I'm not his dumping ground. I fully understand he can't be the real person he is around OW, he wouldn't come off looking that great, I understand nobody knows him, or accepts him for him the way I do but I just felt like I can't be used like that anymore. If he wants OW, and she wants him she needs to see all of him. He needs to realize in this divorce, I won't and can't be there for him like I was during our marriage, I can't emotionally handle that because I love him, he needs to self-destruct on his own. I feel good only because I didn't get all emotional, but I'am feeling like it truly may be over. Thanks for listening, S
