I know exactly how you feel. My H left in August, determined to D me, have an affair that I found out before he left, but he denied and said to this day he started the R with OW after he left me. For the past two months, we had intimate moments everytime we saw each other, many times. And yet he is still seeing OW, infact sees her more than me, saw me only when OW is out of town. He has a lot of pity for OW, says she is a nice girl, he cares for her, cant break her heart, needs time to break off, yada..yada..yada...I am broken hearted too, but he cant see it. I am still holding on to my patience and strength wherever I can find them. I dont know what to do, I want to scream that enough is enough but I love my H so much that I cant bear to lose him. Sometimes I feel that its easier if I hate him so I dont have to go through all this confusion. Its killing me. Please come here to vent all you want and get support. This BB is the only place which keeps me sane during this roller coaster ride. Sorry I am not helping much maybe make you feel worse. Yes, its very confusing and its very hard, hang in there. Whatever happens in the end, we will be fine.

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