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[little1]

After I posted I got to thinking about how I said that I thought something was funny or I was laughing. Then I thought that someone would be offended by it. If I offended anyone I apologize, that was not my intention. I realized that maybe I need to explain myself a little bit.

I have being doing this alone for a year now. I have had NOBODY to talk to, ask questions, vent to, whatever. I find this place, so scared and so terrified. I literally spent days reading every post, every comment, everything. And when I finally felt safe, I registered. Because I felt here I would not be yelled at or laughed at or told I was stupid for doing what I am doing. Here I could find direction, help, a shoulder to cry on, or a boot up my butt if needed. I can read what others are going through, what they tried, what works. Here I feel safe. Here I feel like people honestly care and truly want to help no matter the outcome.

And for a year, I have dealt with this on my own. Keeping everything inside, no one to talk to. And I think its the relief I feel to know I am not alone or isolated or stupid. That is why I said I had to laugh or whatever.

I thought about editing that post but then decided against it. I have nothing to fear here. But I do not want to offend anyone or have any one think I am not serious about this or think any of this is a big joke. Believe me I am not any of those things. I am a scared single mother with a WH that took up with a scallywag.