Hi Pink I'll wait to read your post later but I will echo what Toots has said
Your H is in selfish mode and that won't change quickly. Your biggest problem is you love H and you can't just turn that off. None of us can but detaching yourself from his mess maybe best for now
These times are sent to try us. We can only deal with each day as it comes Today seems like a very tough one so I'm sending positive thoughts your way
enjoy your time with S17 and remember how lucky you are to have him in your life
