Hi Pink, I'm sorry to hear that. I also want you to remember that MLC is ALL about selfishness. And as you acknowledge, your H isn't in a great place right now. He's trying different things to make his life better. But the thing is he doesn't really feel any better.

From what you post, you are still reacting angrily towards him (which I truly understand BTW.) But bear in mind, it is also possible for you to be 'distantly loving' towards him and accept what is happening for now, but move forward with your own life - leaving the door open a tiny chink - but not putting your own life on hold.

That said, I haven't read what you are yet to post...

Take care lovely P xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus