Today - I sent an email to him (approved by my atty)requesting money for bills due. He sent this huge email about how little money he has and has been borrowing money left and right. He said he'll give me whatever he can.
I haven't responded. I knew he was going to do this. I don't see why he thinks I'm asking for all of his money - I'm not.
I asked for utilities for the month, cell phone for the month, groceries for 2 wks, gas for 2 wks, insurance for the month, one time sports registration fees for two of our children, chemo copays and 2 credit card pymts. Nothing extra!! He went ballistic! Especially over my 2 cc pymts. He said that his CC were maxed out by me and he has cancelled them to pay them down. ??
Guess what?, His cc were used to secure hotel stays to visit his other son (from the affair) and for food and gas expenses over there. He had the card in his possession the whole time so I don't know why he thinks I maxed them out?
I am not going to die. I am going to live a long healthy life until Jesus comes back or until God wills but until then - I'm here!!!
The stress of his stuff is unbelievable. I am not trying to be mean or a b****.
I've told my boys and my friends that I don't hate my H. I forgive him. I don't want to make this so difficult. I am simply trying to help the boys spend time with their dad and run the home as best as I can.
The boys and I had a family counseling session and it was so painful to hear. They don't respect their dad. They don't want to be around OW and her kids. They love him but truly hate what he's done and continues to do. They feel the stress I'm under and seems like they want to take the stress away from me but I tell them that I can handle it. It's not their job to carry the weight. My precious babies hate this cancer so much and want to help me not stress. What kind of unbelievable weight is that for my babies to carry? I pray the Lord will help them be strong, courageous, loving and merciful. They shouldn't have to keep this pressure. I try to not stress in front of them but they don't need me to say it - they see it, they feel it. Lord help them!
My mediation is set for the end of next month. My atty wants more $ and now I'll have to pay for mediator and more atty hours. UGH!!!
Y'all's advice is amazing and truly appreciated. I also appreciate the great words of encouragement and prayers. To God be the glory. Continued prayers for strength, courage, wisdom, and Holy Favor.
