hold on! - 11

[u-turn]

Hey Cali - I know it would seem like I am trying to talk myself out of it if I rehashed things. It would make me seem weaker.

I don't think she wants to D either. She has never stated that she wants that, but I am not willing to continue this. So many internal deadlines have come and gone, so many times re-evaluating my situation, so many times getting kicked......

My resentment - yep, it's there - I feel it boiling in me almost every day.

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quite possibly in 3 months it will be finished (i'm sure it will drag on much longer than that once she sees what I am requesting).

I don't know how we are going to manage living together until that point once she is served.... something else to figure out.

Thanks for your support as always (you really help so many around here - super cool cali )