You need to "act as if" in order to change the Dynamics of your situation, based on your responses you sound very deparate and clingy which is not attractive and is simply pushing her further away. At the end of the day it is HER choice to want to be with you or not. So become someone she would like to be with, be mysterious, get a haircut, take care of yourself, women like a man that's confident, successful, and has passion for something.
Eventually she will notice the changes you have made and will reconsider, this take a lot of patience, prayer and determination.
Good luck and keep posting, sending prayers your way!
