I'm so sorry you are here. However, it is the best place to be in a horrid situation. YOU will get through this-know that much.
Please don't doubt that you are a good person. We all makes mistakes and often times we do the best we can with the tools we have in the box. We are all flawed and some are more self aware than others. Use this time to focus on you and know that your self worth (believe it or not) is not tied to your W. And please know you aren't "enabling" her-you have to let her go. She has to see for herself what she thinks about said grass. She has to see for herself what "life" has to offer her on this path and life will continue on for you as well. Don't miss out. Take advantage of this time as Cadet says.
You have to allow yourself to feel the emotions. Some days I still have a good cry and I can count how many times I have cried in the 5 years prior to BD. I could make some song suggestions for you:) However, maybe listen to something else right now until you feel a bit better. Are you a sports fan? I love sports radio.
I know it is difficult. We all do. However, focus on you and your kids. What do you enjoy doing? I promise there will come a day very soon that something makes you laugh uncontrollably or you relish a moment you may not have been able to before. Keep your eyes open.
Hang in there. It does get better!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
