Quote: Is it that we have lost the respect we had for our Hs? The sense of specialness in our R? That innocent feeling of having something unique and precious?
YES to all your 'wonderings.' They are no longer knights in shining armour, they're now just mortal men. They have shown us, up close and personal, what it is to fail themselves and us. I don't think we ever 'look' at them the same way again.
Opt, you also said:
Quote: And I try to act 'as if' because if I don't my H will eventually stop doing the nice things and we will become a self-fulfilling prophecy.
That statement in and of itself says that you are still living through him in many ways. You'll know that YOU are finally healed when how HE feels and what HE does, becomes secondary to how you feel and what you choose to do for YOU.
