Thanks WhyUs,

Yeah, I always seem to fall into these R conversations with her every few weeks or so. I should just STFU and validate but she spews so much garbage. I know I need to back off and detatch but it is hard with 4 kids and for the most part, everyday contact.

I don't talk to her a lot, other than a text here and there, always initiated by her. I try to be cordial and nice but to the point. In our MR, She would rarely talk about her feelings and those would always be short conversations. When we talk now, rare as it is, we really talk for a good amount of time.

I don't like what comes out of her sometimes but she is conveying emotion.

I know she doesn't feel like she has lost me. I know she knows that I miss her even though I don't tell her. She says she is in a different place than me and that she is broken inside and feels like she doesn't deserve to have anything.

Reading the stuff that Sandi has posted, She won't turn it around until she fears or actually does, lose me. Cali says that things turned around for him after he decided he was done.

WW told me the other day that she gets indifferent when I don't respond to her and thinks about letting me fade away.

I know not to believe what she says and she is probably just trying to make me respond more often. Maybe that is the risk I gotta take. If she lets me fade away in her heart,,,so be it.?


T14 M5
SD15,D8,S6,D3
"Not Happy" 12/11/14
EA discovered 2/11/15
MC started 2/17/15
MC "put on hold" 4/3/15
W IC started 4/5/15
PA admitted 5/7/15
WW moves out 5/8/15
WW gets her own place 7/15/15