Funeral for a husband, love lies bleeding

[cczamo]

Update: one year anniversary of divorce passed earlier this month. Tomorrow would have been my 15th wedding anniversary, and I plan to look through a pile of photos that exH left on my garage steps over a year ago. It hurt too much to look through them this past year, but I think my would-be 15th wedding anniversary is a good time to let myself peek back in time.

No communications at all with exH since Sept 2014, but I have heard from the exH of the other woman. He wanted to know my side of the situation, so he googled me and contacted me earlier this month to let me know that he and his wife (the OW) divorced in Nov 2014, one month after her father died and her mother went into hospital. She married my exH in April 2015, 5 months after her divorce. OW and exH moved to yet another nearby small town and bought a very nice house. OW has a 12 year old that lives with OW/exH. I was told that OW cries during the day when exH is at work. Evidently her daughter overhears her cry and explains to her father on weekend visits that she thinks it is because OW is now estranged from her own mother and her own grown pregnant daughter, both who do not approve of OW's marriage to my exH. OW's family evidently still have good relationship with OW's exH and are communicating with him.

OW's exH also mentioned that he has tried for several months to talk with my exH calling him repeatedly at exH work and cell to discuss the situation with his D, who is now mostly living with my exH/OW. I was told that my exH has not returned any of the calls. Obviously exH senses guilt, or fear of OW's exH. (it's so complicated to write all this!)

I suspect that this exH/OW marriage may not last but what do i know? OW and exH were 8th grade sweethearts, so maybe it will stick.

I'm trying to get past my unhealthy curiosity of their situation and not peek on FB. I'm in a serious dating relationship with an older man who treats me wonderfully, and for whom I care deeply. While I'm not "in love", I do love him. He knows that I'm still healing from my divorce, and has made it clear that he will wait for me to heal. He has said he wants to marry. I'm still confused just enough to not trust myself to make a decision of this magnitude just yet.

as crazy as it seems, i do still miss my exH very much, even though he's remarried, and despite all the hell that he's put me through, i still love him.