Huge Backslide After Affair Recovery

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Ugh! I know you are both right. Yesterday we took a class together (non marriage related) taught by someone we know. (We talked minimally... I'm sure we look like an odd married pair w/ how little we smile and interact these days). I got a lot of positive attention in the class (by the male instructor) and it felt good. I worked hard on learnibg the skills taught in the class. That felt good. I felt pretty darn good yesterday & thought pretty much exactly that- a woman only a fool would leave. I felt capable, competent, attractive, and someone that could easily find someone else. But then when I woke up last night, the doubt set in again. I started thinking about H & what he was doing. Today I've been getting mad at him for withdrawing emotionally again... I have kept a lid on it & have had only positive friendly interactions w/ him... But I am already catching myself practicing a conversation about his giving me the cold shoulder as punishment just as I used to give the silent treatment as punishment (and he quickly told me that wouldn't fly early on in our relationship). So why can he draw that line so long ago in our relationship as a unhealthy move but I cannot draw the line at what he is doing now? He was opening up to me Tuesday-thursday until I freaked out on him Friday. Then he took that away. That is not ok.