The World is A-changin'

[Elly4]

Hi All,

Well, I'm headed off tomorrow for my week workshop, and totally backslid. I'm nervous about spending a week with people I don't know 24/7, even at night as I'll have a roommate. And I snore sometimes. Sigh.

I'm worried about being away from my boy for five days. And I'm worried about what my H will do with my S for those 5 days.

So, tonight, after my S went to bed, I started babbling to my H. I was telling him our S's routine, talking about what I'm going to be packing, listened to him talk about finishing the electrical in the house. thanked him for all the work he does even on his days off, talked about how to finish my closet, talked about buying new clothes for work, followed him into the kitchen to tell him that I was sorry I had let my appearance drop in the last years, and then apologized for babbling...and so on. Gosh, I'm an idiot some nights. I should have gone to my room and called a lifeline.

Oh well...I'll have a small chance in the morning to show him the new me again. Then I'll have five days to reset.

Arghh!!