Zeus HI! You always ask me the hard questions very greatly appreciated. It is what I need. Unfortunantly I let my anger show towards him though I need to just keep a happy face and realize he is no longer the responsible person I once knew. Come to find out he did not even use the card to get gas yet he has yet to show up home but It is what It is I can not control it. Now I will be very upset if he is not home in time and does not fill my car before gas station closes because then I will have to miss work. He said he would do it so lets see if he follows through. I would do it myself but only one card and he has it and banks closed on sunday.
You are right I need to let it go. I believe it is one of my fears if I let it go and stop trying it will never work and we all know i am scared of that. I need to overcome that fear!
You make a good point. I think I am still in the area where I am not sure how I would feel if I knew 100%. I am sure I would be fine we have been apart before but I also have not felt as happy in other relationships. I am sure I would adjust just seems so scary yet again. I am greatful for healthy kids and all else. I think its a need things now a necessary. I guess the realization just kinda hit me as I am typing this. scary how my mind changes! Thanks again Zeus! I appreciate your help!
