it just rattles me on how determined she is to "get out" of this marriage.
i still feel like i'm in a fog so much.
like, how is this happening, how can an 18 year relationship dissolve in a month and a half?
how can she be so determined to end this?
how horrible does she remember me being to justify this breakup?
how can she remember 18 years as almost entirely bad?
why does she need to "experience life on her own?"
as you can see the detachment is going really swell.
Hang in there, this does really s@�Ks! I am 7 months into this and still asking these questions and trying to detach. It does get better, but very very slowly. It helps me to remember 'believe nothing of what they say and only 50% of what they do'
Easy to say but so hard to do, the only thing is learn to work on ourself. (((. )))
Both 47 M 20 T25 S 18 EA July 11- Jan 12. ILYBNILWY Oct EA April 13 -July 13 Move to work abroad Sept 14 re establish contact with OW while away D bomb 22/12/14 D filed papers served 17/03/15
