mustardseed thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read! I think my biggest fear is not saving this family. I also realize that it is a guarantee if things do not change. I seem to do good one day and not the next. I guess I also struggle with being only his friend. No matter what happens we will have to be a part of each others lives as his family his my only family. I also feel the pattern is always we become friends and cant live without each other and then we go through this cycle all over again.
