-- Paris -- New house in a new neighborhood where my neighbors will be closer together -- Decorating my new house the way I want to -- Eventually having a job where I can grow and maybe even be valued and not told a trained chimp could do my job -- Control over my finances, the ability to make actual goals and enjoy achieving them
OK, here is where I'm having trouble. I find I'm saying these things but I don't feel them in my heart. This is a problem.
-- Making new, close friends -- Finding a new relationship with someone worthy in which I am actually loved and appreciated -- Running another half marathon without carrying the weight of my failing marriage with me for 13 miles. -- Maybe even having someone to run with for those 13 miles -- Exploring new goals and desires that I've back-burnered or maybe haven't even discovered yet
I'm wallowing. I need to look forward and see the potential and excitement and happiness that is waiting for me. Believe that people who say they are my friends really ARE my friends and take them at their word. Pick myself up and enjoy my life, which may be a bit thorny right now, but I'm almost through the hedge. Now is not the time to falter.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
