Congratulations for bringing up two young kids on your own when they were so young. It surely wasn't an easy task.
At the moment things seem to be all black as it out of our control. All I can say is that probably thorough out all these years, there were some joyful moments and you need to focuse on how they made you felt at the time.
I'm starting to understand that the mind is a powerful tool, but if you let just one ounce of joy in, it'll start to switch from negatives thoughts to happy ones. It will take time for your brain to see the world in a positive light, but you'll get there.
One of my H grief is that I'm very negative, and I'm now seeing that the glass is half full not half empty. I know for sure that I don't want to go back to that depressed, negative Pimouse.
