I spent a chunk of yesterday cleaning out a desk I have to get rid of and came across a stack of cards from STBX from our early years in which he gushed about how much he loved me.
That felt so weird when I think about how he evolved in his treatment of me not so many years later. And he left me a huge box of old bills that I'm sorting through and tossing. I look at the dates and think about where we were then and it's just weird. And both my older kids had to be taken to the doctor for strep throat while they were with STBX (so S7 is probably on deck to get it too) and they look awful on FaceTime and clearly miss me very much because they just hang on the line while I soothe them from 600 miles away.
I leave for Paris in four days. I so hope I succeed in relaxing. It's a real struggle at the moment.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
