Lonlee thanks for stopping by im peerry new here too! It is comforting being able to 'talk' to others in situations like ours instead of people who only want to take sides! I agree with small goals just like Zeus told me set small daily goals to build confidence! My goal today is PMA even though im upset he didn't come home im more upset he didn't drop bank card off so I could get gas told him last night I needed it back! The irresponsibility is what angers me mainly because that is not him!