Just spent five minutes on Facebook liking things I really enjoy and I feel so refreshed. And the kids are on their way home from their trip to visit STBX's family and I'll be so relieved to have them home. I really miss them. Diana Krall playing so the house isn't quiet, a cup of coffee and a fun mystery I'm going to start this morning. Starting to feel a little more like myself.
It has been a long, very rough ride. It will take time to get my ship righted and moving in the direction I want to go. There's no purpose to beating myself up for not being there yet.
I think maybe I am feeling some grief for how very tough things were for such a long time. I've stood up and taken every body blow and tried not to let it knock me down. The end is in sight. It's ok to grieve, and I'd rather do it here and leave it here (and tell the new owners to have it spiritually cleansed when they move in) than bring my grief to my new house/fresh start.
I really did have a long rough ride. I've learned a big lesson. Sorry for the post-bombing this morning, I guess it's processing day for me.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
