My blood pressure has become an object of anxiety again so I thought I'd list my worries here to put things in perspective:
1. The divorce. STBX still has the power to upset me. The divorce is almost through but not quite, and he continues to ask for things. Yesterday he asked for a kitchen table. It belonged to his grandfather so I understand why (and he says his mother asked for it), but it was in the basement unused when he moved out and bought a new one from Target. He brought other stuff from the basement so he made an intentional choice not to take it. But he wants it back. Just not now, because he has no place to put it. So apparently he considers me free storage at his convenience. I can't talk to him more than five minutes without feeling blind fury. Though I suppose that's an improvement from six months ago when I wanted to grab him bodily and throw him whenever I saw him.
2. My babysitter situation. It's a long and dreary tale, but I'm firing my sitter. Except yesterday when I went to tell her, she was sleeping... Or "sleeping." I left her a long letter but I don't know if she's seen it yet so I guess I have to text her (her preferred method of communication) to say "you're fired, read the letter I left you." I just so can't wait for the fallout from that.
3. My move. I think it will be fine, but there is a LOT bundled into those two little words to stress me out. I'm trying so hard to have faith.
4. My job. My boss was nice on Friday but she's been HELL for a while. I'm definitely poorly placed and I'd really like to quit. I have to get through my closing first. She has been horrible and my pay will get docked for my house closings. She yells at me for stuff that's not my fault (is actually her fault). Just walking into the office is oppressive.
5. My health. It has suffered badly since I went back to work. I don't want to live like this anymore.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
